Saturday, August 30, 2008
but when i do it scares the crap out of me
the sixth of september
it's okay to be nervous
there is great possibilities for that day
quite possibly one of the best
or one of the worst days of my life
we have yet to find out
i'm just not going to think about it.
but. what if...
i wouldn't know what to do.
or how to respond.
i thought we've been through this already
i thought there's already been so much pain.
i didn't know more was possible.
but what if the news is good.
i haven't prepared myself for that.
i might not know how to respond to that either.
don't get me wrong.
it'd be the best day of my life.
undoubtably there will be tears either way.
God help me.
Thursday, August 28, 2008
This was going to take place until I realized something... The difference between girls and guys. In my opinion, it is "socially acceptable" for girls to say "I have a crush on so and so" or "Isn't so and so hot?" But if a guy says something of the sort, the girls just think he's shallow. Because guys are just visually stimulated, right? That's why we think that... but what else are girls stimulated by when we say we're crushing on some famous person? Is it not just their looks? Lets be seroius, Michael Scofield seems like a good guy, but it's not like we've hung out a whole lot, ya know.
So with this all in mind, my status never said anything of the sort. Because if I saw a guys' status say something of the sort, I would probably lose a little respect... maybe just for a day or two, but nonetheless... So if it's not okay for a guy, why should it be okay for a girl?
So I decided to change that part of my life and not speak of guys in that way. Because let's be serious, God made some pretty attractive ones, but lets not idolize, not matter how small the idolization is.
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
Saturday, August 23, 2008
Thursday, August 21, 2008
Oh, and once upon a time, a girl liked a boy.
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
I thought I was busy last year, but this year I have...
- Classes / Homework
- Athletic Training Hours
- Youth Group
- Bible Study
- CRU Planning Comity
- Church / College Night
and then maybe I'll get to hang out with friends for an hour per week, maybe.
But what I realized today while at youth group, was that in the past I have always felt that i 'had no life' because I was so busy with everything and got no time to rest... but what I realized tonight was that this is the best life could be. Investing in kids' lives is so rewarding... studying God's Word is the best thing I could be doing with my life... planning things to draw people into God's family is way better than sleeping. Church... my family and friends who build me up and take care of me when needed - this is crucial. So where in the past I've thought of them all as just another thing to keep me way too busy, I now see as true life... these are the things that make life worth living...
Saturday, August 02, 2008
St. Cloud, MN 56301
I am posting this only so I will have it once I get back to camp. Because something tells me if I write it on a piece of paper that paper will not end of going to camp with me. This is a fail-safe way of doing it.
Here's the thing I didn't take into consideration: water is very filling, and is capable of making one feel bloated very quickly. The pain. The physical pain. It was so intense. My stomach has never screamed at me as it did that night.
Thoughts on 1st half of the watermelon: "This is no big deal, it should be easy"
Thoughts on 2nd half of the watermelon: "Please, anything but this"
First Place: Guy - 21 minutes 45 seconds.
Second Place: Steve - 36 minutes 36 seconds
Third Place: Josh - 41 minutes 07 seconds
Fourth Place: Ashley - 61 minutes 24 seconds
Fifth Place: Cassie - Threw up at 42 minutes 53 seconds, finished 51 minutes 48 seconds
One thing that I think needs to be added is how watermelon, when consumed at that quantity, clears out a system. Almost instantaneously after I was finished eating it, I was in the bathroom and it was all coming out... and it kept coming for quite some time. But I think that's all I have to say about that.